a series of unexpected events

i'm very concerned.

when i read books or watch movies, i find i'm a way attuned to how the creator foreshadows what's coming up later in the plot. i can predict who the headless horseman is coming after next; in a platform full of departing soldiers and their sweethearts i can tell who's coming back and who's not. in real life, as well, my natural mix of hopeful optimism and pragmatic pessimism serves my powers of divination well - i can hope for the best while still being unsurprised when the worst occurs. (cf the recent australian and US elections.) i see it all coming.

or at least i used to. recently i have found so many things happening around me, on both a personal and global scale, that i never would have seen coming. stuff to do with boys, girls, fire, water, power, weakness, knowledge, pure and unadulterated stupidity. even with my overused, vivid, drama-queen's imagination, i never imagined half this shit.

current music: the world at large - modest mouse

Ice-age heat wave, can't complain.
If the world's at large, why should I remain?
Walked away to another plan.
Gonna find another place, maybe one I can stand.
I move on to another day, to a whole new town with a whole new way.
Went to the porch to have a thought.
Got to the door and again, I couldn't stop.
You don't know where and you don't know when.
But you still got your words and you got your friends.
Walk along to another day.
Work a little harder, work another way.
Well uh-uh baby I ain't got no plan.
We'll float on maybe would you understand?
Gonna float on baby maybe would you understand?
Well float on maybe would you understand?
The days get shorter and the nights get cold.
I like the autumn but this place is getting old.
I pack up my belongings and I head for the coast.
It might not be a lot but I feel like I'm making the most.
The days get longer and the nights smell green.
I guess it's not surprising but it's spring and I should leave.
I like songs about drifters-books about the same.
They both seem to make me feel a little less insane.
Walked on off to another spot.
I still haven't got anywhere that I want.
Did I want love? Did I need to know?
Why does it always feel like I'm caught in an undertow?
The moths beat themselves to death against the lights.
Adding their breeze to the summer nights.
Outside, water like air was great.
I didn't know what I had that day.
Walk a little farther to another plan.
You said that you did, but you didn't understand.
I know that starting over is not what life's about.
But my thoughts were so loud I couldn't hear my mouth.
My thoughts were so loud.